absence...

i just don't understand why im wasting my saturday away again.
and for spending time on the com? damn myself.
looks like studying/mugging/learning is absent from my weekend.
cos tmr im bloody hell gg out. if i knw this is gg to happen, i shudnt have even planned to go out. craps. i shud have thought about elmer's words.
sighs~

motivation appears to be absent again. wires in my brain don't seem to connect. yet castles form so quickly above my head.
i didnt come to a jc for nothing. i was known to be smarty pants for obvious reasons, yet i couldnt even get an A grade anywhere. its absence is certainly missed.

procrastination on the other hand seems to kick in so ever frequently. although i have dedicated my past week doing chem papers, it appears that i havent actually done enough for me to boast about. nor is it enough for me to overtake the geniuses in TPJC.

there is more than schoolwork and alvl preparation that im procrastinating about. there is still something else like yadayada to think and worry about.


im hoping things doesnt get worse, cuz it sounds rather screwed up already.

but i'll just smile my negative thoughts away. :)