its only a matter of time before things come to light.
纸是包不住火的， 我认命了。

to think i might just perish bcos of someoneelse's blunder and ignorance.
ohmygodness somebody pleasepleaseplease tell me this is so NOT possible.
crap.

and im hungry like crap today. i just cant stop eating after my lunch at home. goodness.

andand i heard electrical bills are going to be raised by 20% nxt month or something. i guess that's another incentive for me to stop using the com and start my intensive studying :/

now i know what the feeling of crappy means. :///

random

fried icecream... mango pudding...

its a pity i dun see fried icecream anywhere now. and i certainly cant find a mango pudding that is classified under delicious.

i remeber eating fried icecream from 2 places. one was the very famous one at tiong bahru, the other one was at a pasar malam at payar lebar. (i vividly remeber it was nearing hari raya and the place was swarming with people.)
the latter tasted much better though the size was smaller, much like that of a fist. i cant rmb what flavour it was, but it was dammmmmm nice.
the one at tiongbahru was full of air, nothing else. but still it was super famous.

today, the issue about mango pudding is that it just doesnt taste nice anymore. it have been many years since i last tasted one that was worth eating. now its more like mango agar-agar feel than a mango soft mashy pudding feel ( not to forget the intense milk to be poured on top of the mango pudding. yumyum. )

ok, i was being totally random. (:

the apocalypse

haha bible teachings about the apocalypse in gp class today, end up when asked who in the class was christian or catholic, no one raised their hand. haha.

i was watching orphra's big give yesternight.
it just occured to me how beautiful compassion is.
im insipired to do my part for the needy when i get richer.
imagine making someone's life so much bttr when u don;t even feel a pinch about the money u donate.

finally the sweet taste of victory.

despite a slow start, we managed to win every single game.
i saw perseverance during the match that we almost lost. anyway guess what? we almost lost to some small kids. 11-8. that game is latched in my memories. we didnt have wilson and jianhong cos they left with their gfs already.
but still i find it difficult to dish out the ball. i conclude after todays game that my ball sense is weak and my vision is constrained.
and i realised i bought a wrong shoe. it doesnt support my style of play in any way. damn. no wonder its called force. im forced to wear it now. lol.

i thought about it, im postive im going to miss jc life though im always saying i hate it. (:

i was astonished to wake up and find myself sprawled on living room sofa.
it was 3am through the night.
i have no idea how i get there, but im positive i went to sleep in my bed.
guess im just too tired. has.

absence...

i just don't understand why im wasting my saturday away again.
and for spending time on the com? damn myself.
looks like studying/mugging/learning is absent from my weekend.
cos tmr im bloody hell gg out. if i knw this is gg to happen, i shudnt have even planned to go out. craps. i shud have thought about elmer's words.
sighs~

motivation appears to be absent again. wires in my brain don't seem to connect. yet castles form so quickly above my head.
i didnt come to a jc for nothing. i was known to be smarty pants for obvious reasons, yet i couldnt even get an A grade anywhere. its absence is certainly missed.

procrastination on the other hand seems to kick in so ever frequently. although i have dedicated my past week doing chem papers, it appears that i havent actually done enough for me to boast about. nor is it enough for me to overtake the geniuses in TPJC.

there is more than schoolwork and alvl preparation that im procrastinating about. there is still something else like yadayada to think and worry about.


im hoping things doesnt get worse, cuz it sounds rather screwed up already.

but i'll just smile my negative thoughts away. :)

48 more days, dats all i got.
and god dammit, im still going downhill.

i just discovered a new hate!!!
anything that relates to fishy smell. esp cooked food!!! (i dun really mind sashimi though)
damm the fishy smell totally spoilt my dinner.
tsk.

another wasted weekend.
im feeling to guilty.

the last assembly, results and post number 100.

today marks the last ever assembly im going to have as a tpjcian.
the last time singing national anthem and pledge in uniform.
my, im going to miss morning assembly.


prelims results are out. it aint really well done, but i still managed to pass all of em nonetheless.
BCDEE
true enough i haven got an A since last yr.
i shall learn from my mistakes and move on.


yep this is post number 100 on this url.


it's rachel's bday today and tecko's and khookhoo's tmr.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

prelim results will be out tmr!!!
what an enticing wait.

promos starts tmr! good luck juniors dun get urself retained! XD

很感激 這城市擁擠的交通
讓你我 還能多相處幾分鐘
人潮中 怕失散所以輕輕拉你的手
一刻不放鬆 不放鬆

忍不住 想要愛你的衝動
不確定你屬於我 會有點寂寞
你給的幸福 在我心中自由走動
撫平我每一個傷口
忍不住 想要吻你的衝動
不確定我的執著 能讓你感動
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
關於你的一切 我想要比誰都懂

我的心 是被你設定的鬧鐘
提醒我 想你的時間不夠用
為什麼 平淡的事情現在忽然生動
是你改變我 你改變我

忍不住 想要愛你的衝動
不確定你屬於我 會有點寂寞
你給的幸福 在我心中自由走動
撫平我每一個傷口
忍不住 想要吻你的衝動
不確定我的執著 能讓你感動
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
關於你的一切 我想要比誰都懂

你是情人 還是朋友
還沒勇氣 想得太多
你的世界 如此遼闊
我會在哪個角落

忍不住 想要愛你的衝動
不確定你屬於我 會有點寂寞
你給的幸福 在我心中自由走動
撫平我每一個傷口
忍不住 想要吻你的衝動
不確定我的執著 能讓你感動
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
關於你的一切 我想要比誰都懂

to sum up my sep hols in 1 word,

wasted.


too much time is wasted in thinkin and livin amongst the clouds and beneath the earth.

sighs~ procrastination(is there such a word?)


i shall Procrastinate no more.



at times its never too late to turn back.

i guess i just need someone
or maybe even something...

to drag me back to earth.

that one friendly, compassionate nudge.



then again. somethings only can be done by myself.


for a start, i shall abandon this blog. abandon my previous ideas of editting the blog code.

http://www.latimes.com/video/?autoStart=true&topVideoCatNo=default&clipId=2876186

LOL. lebron loses horse challenge. lol.


its time to go green with a green blog. i shall edit the code when i got time. meanwhile thats the pic i've been working on. (:

daily dime.

i've officially wasted my sep holidays away. damm im so going to lose to those muggers. jialat.

to add on to that, i've wasted my time doing this so called "imba" mjc 07 prelim chem question. i've solved it. like finally. cos there is a bloody error in the question!!! i guess those mj teachers wrote so many paragraphs that they didnt realise there was a numerical mistake!!! no wonder i couldnt get the R. (obviously i was so full of myself and checked the answer to find out im right.) but then again, i didnt finish it in 15mins like how i predicted i would. in fact i took bloody hell 15 min to digest the question. LOL.

im soooo not ready for the A's.


bye.

checking back.

i just finished "five people you meet in heaven" by mitch albom.
to my dismay i wasnt really intrigued as i was when i read his other book "tuesdays with morrie"
but still, it is a good book, such that it brings about really insipiring messages. it makes me wonder why and for whom i live for.

5 lessons learnt. maybe more.