wasted?

i wonder if i have better things to do during dismount days than stay at home and do unproductive stuff.

....

the weather's hot//
making me perspire everynow and then//

i'm reallyreally tired//

RAGE!

it appears my engine isn't out of steam yet.
good.

down

that's the direction my fitness level is heading.

trapped

i'm currently stucked in a kind of life i never visioned myself to be in.
this kind of life just isnt suitable.

lapses.

a day went pass, the next carried on. another day arrives.
the cycle carries on and on and on until the day we stop counting.

my first wkend came since duty started, and it breezed pass me soon after.
i adore wkends, though i usually don't get any productive moments.
but i just don't have the luxury of wkends anymore.

i don't have a choice.

" There is no 'i' in 'team', but there is 'i' in 'win'. " - Michael Jordan

impossible life

is there too much rest time or is there too little?
today i felt like i was drowned in a whiskey tub and soberness was lighyears away.

i'm hypnotised and i'm probably on the verge of getting brainwashed as well.

to add to my misery, i've probably lost all motivation as well.

roots

its always good to remember where you first started.
where you grew up...

today is the day i looked back, to find out who i really was.
its a fruitful day.

life now, as it is.

i will run tmr morning and do some pt.
i mean it.